Wow, talk about frustration. For some reason, I have been unable to log into this account for days and days. I finally took a deep breath, said a prayer and went through the whole password reset thing (again). I am on here now, but I don't know what the issue was to begin with. Ugh, I can't stand not knowing why something does not work.

Colt update - he is doing a little better in school. He is still having problems sitting down in class and actually completing his assignments though. He had to stay after school one day last week to catch up on some math work. Please continue to pray for him. Things are getting better - slowly. Slowly - that's another thing I can't stand. I can't stand to wait. The older I get the more impatient I seem to be - have to pray harder about that one :)

I was thinking a few weeks ago - We all know that God has the power to change Colt in one second. He could - in an instant - transform Colt into a 13 year old Bill Gates - or the perfect student. So, if I am praying and fasting, and all of you guys are praying - why isn't it happening? Why would God not answer this prayer immediately and take the frustration and stress out of this situation? There are many aspects of life that we could ask this question about. I would like to be a more patient person - if I am praying about that why is it not happening like, right now? If I am trying to get out of debt and I tithe and pray about it, why am I not instantly, supernaturally out of debt? If I am having problems in a relationship and I pray about it and I love and serve the other person with all I have, why is it not getting better? Why in these situations do I have to take one step forward only to feel like Satan has pushed me two steps back? You know why? Because even though God has the ability to make it all better in an instant He knows that if He does, I will take what He gives me and be content with that. Oh, I might praise Him for a moment, a day, a week, but eventually, I will forget the excitement of it and go back to my old ways of calling on Him just when I need Him.

God allows us all to go through trials - slowly sometimes - in order to teach us to constantly look to Him. He molds us into what He wants us to be. He teaches us that we cannot do these things on our own, we must constantly look to Him for His loving help, guidance and provision. He is a faithful God and when we learn this and begin to look to Him for everything, He will honor and reward that. How encouraging!

Perseverance is the key. Push through whatever you are going through. When you finally come out on the other side healed, delivered, debt free, whatever - you will also be that much closer to God. I can't imagine anywhere else I'd rather be :)